Monday, January 4, 2010

Delusion...



Do you ever look in the mirror and see something different than what you expect? Sometimes people see themselves as heavier than they are, and some people see themselves as thinner than they are.

Some people see themselves in spandex and think that its a great look.
Some people see themselves in black pants and black shoes and brown socks and think they're hot stuff.

The topic today bloggies is Delusion.

How much of what we see is actually what it is and how much of it is what our brains tell us it is. I mean in 1980s spandex would be H-o-t- HOT! Without the fashion police one may not even notice that they were wearing brown socks...
Some may say that without magazines and the media pressing a view of femininity (be it large or small,, depending on your culture I think) we would want to look more or less of ourselves.

Our brains may very well be MUSH! How do we hit the reset button on them?

I went and bought this gorgeous red sweater, it had a huge cowel (sp?) neck on it and kept me warm and cozy and was in Christmas season and I loved it. I tried it on in multiple sizes and colors to be sure I got the right one. I seriously love this sweater. Well I wore it out with friends and pictures were taken, and I look seriously like a Christmas abominable snowman burnt by the sun. It was not supportive or beautiful like it was up close (in my mush-head), and frankly unless it was up close was too forgiving... Yikes.

So now I wear the sweater and think 'those around me see blob when I'm feeling good', and I think to myself,,, what are they seeing when I'm not feeling good. EEK. What does it matter what they see and does it matter more than how I feel?

Should it? I think I'm going to keep wearing the sweater but maybe not out on the town, and try to keep the photo-opts cropped? Oy.

Why do we make ourselves crazy over these silly things.

3 comments:

Ms. Diva said...

I don't think men make themselves this crazy!!! I used to think I will NEVER leave the house without makeup and now it has to be an occassion to get me to wear it! I even have pictures taken without makeup! Maybe it's age, amybe it's the fact that my Honey likes me without my warpaint!! Who knows!

~SHANNON~ said...

I definitely suffer from this. And I think I get it both ways. For instance there are so many times in my life I can remember shying away from pictures, and thinking I was so fat. And now I look back at photos that were taken during those times and think- geez, I wish I had realized I was cute!! But I wasted that time being super critical of myself. By the same token, when I start to get genuinely chubby, I tend to not realize it till all the sudden I see a pic like you did or something - and then I think "oh yeah, I need to get exercising."

lol. I have no answers. But I def suffer from lot's of delusions...the above included;)

Holly Lefevre said...

Thanks for coming by my place. Sometimes I feel great, sometimes I feel crappy. Sometimes I think I look good and then see a photo and think "what was I thinking," and consider just buying a lot of new sweats.