Big Bang Play by Play..

So you know I have some fave TV shows... Well tonite I'm watching my DVR'd Big Bang,,,
and I'm gonna do my closest attempt at a play by play,,, as seen/heard by me!:)


Have we begun to mention that I LOVE RAJ and Sheldon!!???

Sheldon is not allowed to go to the meteor shower cuz he's going to write a paper on BS. He discusses colonial history of Thailand to try to get his appetizer and dinner ordered.

OMG if he knocks on another one of Penny's doors 'knock knock knock Penny?'.

Tubs are slippery!:)
Bwhahahahahahah the ducks are whimsical because they have neither a need for or the ability to use umbrellas.

where is the glenoid socket?


Bwahahahhaahha Menopause,, natures birth control hahahahahahahaa

BWHWHWHWHWHHWHWHWHWHHWHW
"Is that my arm?"
"It doesnt feel like a arm"
"well maybe you should let it go!"
Bwahahahahah


OMG Raj is focusing his brain on trying to make the world stop spinning!!!
This is the best episode EVER!!!

OMG THE AMERICAN ACCENT.... I just fell in love with Raj AGAIN!.

PS... Sheldon and his mirror adjustments are SOOO like Kevin,, whenever he drives my car I seriously bang my head so hard on the car cause its so close to the window!

"I would be kind to my rabbits .... at first'

"YOu know what is a cool name.... Angelo.... it has angel and jello in it".

"Mr Spock did not pilot the enterprise".

"But I do suppose it takes courage to have that kind of commitment to soup!".

"Check and see if we have anymore pudding".

"I'll put in progress...... bwahahahaha'.

"Possible Tourette's"

Watching Sheldon be comforting is quite frankly the creepiest most awesome thing ever!!!!

"Charm of your drug addled candor knows no bounds"...

OMG He's going to sing to Penny...

Oh I hope Raj speaks American again!!!

OMG HE Did it!!!! He's mocking Howard and I love it.

OKay off to watch Kelly Cutrone!:)

Man's questions:)

1 - Why did you start blogging? I started blogging because it was a way for me to keep up with my family and friends that do not live nearby, it later developed into a way to be creative and write my thoughts.

2 - Who's the one blog friend that you would want to meet most in "real life"?
Honestly there are quite a few! I love my local blog friends like Kerri or Kiera, and I look forward to meeting many more at Blogher 2010

3 - Why are you always concerned with losing that "extra 10 pounds" when chances are your husband/boyfriend/friends tell you that you look just fine the way you are?
I'm not concerned about what my bf things concerning my weight. Thankfully he's always loved me and doesn't understand why I beat myself up so its easy to not be concerned, its not negative. But weight loss is something for my health and my happiness no one else's.

4 - What's the one thing you wish guys could understand about you?
I think I would like both women and men need to understand that a strong woman who is assertive about her opinions (I do not mean aggressive I mean assertive), that she's not a b*&^% , and that she is a person with feelings and thoughts.:) We attack our own and we attack each other and its all hurtful.

5 - Tattoos. How many do you have and how many are visible when you wear your "everyday" clothes? I have none, I really have no symbol that is important enough for me to be permanent, perhaps in the future I may but right now, no butterfly or flower means that much.


6 - What was the best year of your life and why?
Honestly, since I turned 30 in Oct, this year has been the best. I have been rocking my life and I'm a part of my friends and family's lives and its all awesome.

7 - Name three things you would do if you were a man for one day.
I would spend LESS time in the bathroom, my hair and makeup process would be nil!
I would wear a baseball cap regularly.
I would go to a bar and sit alone and be cool with that.!

8 - What's your alcoholic drink of choice that usually raises a few eyebrows?
Yuengling,, since my time in PA I love that beer and its a strange name up here in Buffalo but people always look at me funny for wanting that.

You can Dance if you Wanna!

So yesterday Kevin woke up from his mid-day nap (he works really early AM's on weekends so he naps when he gets home). He came out to the living room where I was happily reading blogs and farming and catching up on my ANTM/Housewives/Runway. (tough life, I know)

So anyway he was feeling kinda blah and has had some sinus/allergy things going on for a few days so it was no fun for him. I asked him 'how is your face (sinus)'.. he said okay he just felt blah/no energy.

So I said okay,, stand up!!! And I turned the TV on. He looked at me and rolled his eyes as he knows what's going to happen next. I turned to my most fave music channel, Hit list (sometimes I switch to Dance/Electronica or Pop or Today's Country).. and he said 'are we having a dance party'... I said OF COURSE now stand up!.

So we promptly danced in our living room , with our socks on the hardwood (yes we randomly slid across too cuz that was super fun!) Within about five minutes we had both burned some calories laughed a ton and got our energy levels back to a normal level.

I'm totally a lucky girl to have found a man that not only will dance randomly in the house with me, but will not get upset when he's feeling blah and I try to come up with something nutsy to do mid day!:)

SO I thought I'd share some dance-friend pics to show you how Kevin and I get down with our friends and family and also how they rock it.

This is Kevin and I slow dancing with his sister, Amy on my bday when we went to see THE LANCE (lancediamond) Yes he's wearing a fedora he could not be contained.


This is from a few weeks ago when we went to a Disco with Joanne and her friends! No I'm not wearing the same shirt, I just love the perfect blue!


This is Kevin and Laura doing the cha cha slide at Nicole's Wedding.


This is Nicole and Martin during their first dance as hub/wifey.


This is HYSTERICAL Laura and Dave dancing... we had to take this pic a few times cause they're both camera hams.

and finally

This is Kevin and I at Nicole's wedding,, this is probably closest to the flash-dance party we had yesterday!:)

PS If you think Nicole and Laura are super cute, check out their blogs at:
Laura-Lavender Labryinth at http://lavenderlabyrinth.wordpress.com/
Nicole- Simple Travels in my HOmelande at http://www.simplelivinginabigcity.com/

and also check out my cousin Shannon's blog, Milk and Cuddles at http://milkandcuddles.com/. There are pictures of her and I dancing and her and her husband dancing but I couldnt find them on FB or her blog so I want it to be noted she's a dance fan too!:)

Friday Follow! Whatdju Say?

Hey bloggies, its FRIDAY following, and I hope you click the link above and find many other blogs to love on like you all so kindly love on mine:) I look forward to finding new blogs and meeting new peeps too!:)

So today I'd like to talk about many phrases that people say during the course of my days/weeks that drive me BONKERS. Phrases that don't make sense or are filler phrases.. and I have no idea where these phrases come from but maybe you too can be amused and share some of yours!!!

A) Six in one,,, 1/2 dozen in the other- Um,,,,I guess the point is that there is no difference but really, is all that necessary. Is it important to make me think 'um six is half... well unless your a baker' while your in the middle of whatever conversation your trying to express.

B) Long story short- Hate hate HATE this phrase... is it a long story or is a short story? Do you think I want the edited version or the long version and if there is more to the story what are you NOT telling me? The thing that makes me TOTALLY bonkers is when someone throws this lil nugget into the convo roughly 50 times in between the important stuff.. As a filler its torture. TORTURE I tell you peeps!

C) I'm the Indian, not the Chief- Yeah this is as inappropriate as it sounds, I guess the concept is that this person cannot make any decisions because they hold minimal power, but when it comes to scheduling me an appointment,, I dont care who I need to speak with that will help me, if you can't help me transfer me to someone who can, don't use an inappropriate cultural slur to emphasize your point. Ugh

C)Not for nothing- WHAT? Double negatives make me totally bonkers.. sometimes in a way that is entertaining like 'dont use no double negatives'.. but in this case I'm so distracted by the nonsense that you just said I'm not really sure if we're saying we don't like something or we do like something?? I"m confused,, lets start again and maybe don't use this one !

D) Ya feel me? -Um no.. I do not feel or touch or anything on you. I'm pretty sure your trying to say 'do you understand me' or 'do you know what i mean?'... but all I'm hearing is touch touch touch and all I'm thinking is No NO NO.

And now to end with a phrase that I love and just randomly squeal through the day..


MILKA WHAT??!!!!

It took me long enough,,

So all you bloggy friends old and new (welcome!) may recall that exercising is something is important to me. Maybe you recall my super-ambitious attempt to wake up and go to the gym BEFORE work?. You probably recall my many reasons for wanting to exercise and have a runners body and core and mental strength. You may also recall my first race where I tried to run 8k on Thanksgiving!?.

But you also know my vices.. we just chatted a few days ago about a serious problem with chocolate peanut butter!. You know I gave up some stuff for Lent to try to push myself and bring my relationship with God a bit tighter and a bit further away from the 'stuff' that I feel like I rely on and keep me further from joy.

So while I have a good amount of weight to lose, I decided to put a ticker with a small baby step goal. Its by no means a small feat but its not the whole goal. Just like I'm not going to pay off my student loan in one lump sum (unless any of ya'll wanna donate me like 90k? hahaha). So its important to not focus on the overall and instead to focus on a 'chunk' (pun!) at a time!

I have been debating posting this ticker for awhile now, and Shell's Pour your Heart out Meme really helped me to not be afraid (Thanks Shell). (Sadly because I spent all my free time reading other's posts today I might be late on the mclinky but I'm going to try).

I've been debating because I don't want my blog to be about any one topic. I don't want someone to stumble upon this blog and say 'oh this is another weight loss blog' and not look deeper and find the many meandering variations of me. I have gained the weight slowly but the lowering of my self esteem and the mismatch that has happened between who I feel like I am on the inside and who I portray on the outside has did not happen slowly. That happened during grad school when I went to the health center for strep throat and all I heard the physician say was the word obese. From that point on, my self esteem continued to be poisoned and I started the yo-yo of loss and gain, always ending up more on the gain side.

When I was younger I was HUGELY active. Tomboy barely described me. Wearing sweatpants in middle school when everyone else was wearing Gap Jeans and concerned about how they looked. I wore sweatpants. (not always but as often as I could get away with it!). I played a sport EVERY season. When I broke my wrist I couldnt do volleyball as it was still healing after the cast came off, so I joined the swim team. Not being a part of an athletic event was not possible for me. I loved junk food but my mom kept us eating really healthy at home and we rarely went out to eat. I actually got an 'paperplate award' for being the Garbage Plate because when our teams would go to McDonalds after a long trip I'd finish everyone else's plates.. (dangerous foreshadowing anyone?)

In high school it became more complex and while I could be a part of the teams I also wanted to sing and dance and get a job and have a boyfriend and so sports took their place but were not the only driving force.

College was about dancing in bars or on stages and while I was NOT a dancer, I had fun and was very active in an evolving way.

Grad School beat me down all around but my self esteem plummeted when I heard obese. I was aware my sizes were changing in clothes but I still loved myself and I had some kind of reverse body dysmorphia where I didnt realize how I was bigger than I thought I was. The word obese changed that all, and I soon learned that if I was going to eat I had to mock myself and joke about 'fatty' and it just got destructive and not helpful.

I love food as you know and I love learning to cook but not as much as I love eating deliciousness. Buffalo is such a mecca for awesome food, but that is not all there is to life. There is much more and in order for me to find the self esteem that I once had I need to have that ticker up there to make me accountable for my actions.

Its like a reminder that makes me realize that its something I value daily and not just occasionally. I'm ready to be healthier and I'm ready to be thinner and I'm ready to love my body inside and out and make it function better. I am ready, and today it starts.

Baby step #1.:)

In an attempt

In an attempt to curb my hunger craving today, the day I returned to counting WW points, chose to be healthier and eat less junk... I drank water to fill my stomach in an attempt to avoid the DD muffins that are talking to me from across the room.

They are lent-approved,, but they amass approximately 15 points and frankly I can't agree to have that as dinner so I must avoid.

So water,, I thought this was a great idea... Fill myself up with water so that I'm too full to want to eat and or let my stomach growl.

Plan-FAIL! Instead the 'full' feeling is only located in my bladder and I'm running like a total idiot to the bathroom 100 times today, and while running,, my stomach STILL GROWLING.. not happy. not happy at all.

So bloggies I need some suggestions STAT! What do you eat/drink that helps curb your cravings during the long hauls of the workday!?
(and please don't say chocolate as I might cry).

Table Top Tuesday (round three!)

would you rather live for a week in the past
or in the future?

There are many things in my past that I would like to 'McFly' myself back to the future and reset and restate or do something different to not hurt a friends' feelings or make someone feel judged or bad. But those are part of the lessons that make me me, so if given the choice..


I would go forward. I would get a glimse into the future and see what it is that I have become and see if it is what I want to become or if I need to tweak things now in order to make them better or different.

Like maybe 15 years from now I'm a SAHM and I am miserable because I miss my colleagues and the academia of my career. Or maybe I'm still working full time and I'm missing out on the growths and changes of my children? Or maybe I couldnt have kids and 15 years from now I'm contemplating adoption and wishing I had time back. Who knows what the world will still develop and I know that while I'd like to change things in the past, knowing that I'd be happy in the future makes pushing through the tough stuff now so much more worth it.

What do you think!?